It’s been no secret that I’ve been on a diet for two months now, this post is a little update to let you all know where I’m at and some of the problems I’ve faced recently. If you want to read about the start of my journey first, I suggest you head over to this link over here. Now that I’m further on and starting to see and feel different, I thought it would be interesting to show the toughest side of dieting against the better bits. So the aforementioned ‘better bits’ are fairly obvious; I have changed shape, I have lost nearly another stone and I have felt better in my own skin, I can now run across the road without huffing and puffing, my posture has improved.
Unfortunately, however, I have noticed a few changes that I’m not quite as happy with. My outlook on food and body image has changed because I’ve been focusing on the number on the scales and I’m hyper aware of the way food impacts my body. Primarily I saw how much I had been snacking on rubbish, I was boredom eating pre-diet and because I don’t really have a hobby I have struggled to think of something other than food. I have also been guilty of skipping meals and cutting back too much for the sake of losing another few lbs, I know that it’s unhealthy and not sustainable but it does become an obsession. This is particularly an issue because I remember cruel comments made by boys in school and I constantly point out my own flaws. Behaviour like this, admittedly I have found silly in other people and I didn’t really realise that I had started to do it until I sat back and thought about it.
I want to be at my best, I want a body as strong as it is beautiful. It’s not possible with my current outlook and I’m trying to change the way I think, honestly, I know that I need to pick myself up and set my head on straight but it’s not as easy as it sounds.
My main goal this week has been to listen to my body and give it what it needs to be healthy. The porridge above has been my attempt at satisfying my sweet tooth and to give me a natural sugar boost for energy. Other than that I have been taking better care of my diet by adding more protein and green vegetables. I have eaten out a few times too, one time I ordered mushroom benedict and another I ordered a chicken and rice dish with vegetables. It’s little treats like these that have really boosted me up since realising how unhealthy my attitude towards dieting has been. If anyone else has had similar problems, I’d love to get chatting to you because I feel like there’s a lot of pressure on people to be upbeat and positive about weightloss.